These projects pile up sometimes and I feel a little overwhelmed, especially when I am depressed. I also have book ideas coming out my ears. Two that are pretty well formed.
My literary agent finally reached out to me so we can start the submission process, which makes me feel a little less like I'm in purgatory, but it makes way for a whole new set of anxieties...such as the inevitable rejection or even more frightening acceptance with revisions.
I just want to do everything and I do not have time. I, unlike some other overachievers I know, need 8 hours of sleep to function without crying for no reason and it leaves less time for actual productivity. I also like to cook a lot and get exercise...so there goes the week and I still cannot draw the theme for Illustration Friday. I would like to believe that I will cut back on coffee stuff...but that is a lie. So, I am left feeling a little strung out somewhat stagnant. I do believe the 8 hours of sleep I am due might at least help me get a theme for illustraiton Friday. (ps- the people who say they are fine on 3-4 hours of sleep a night do not realize the amount of support and attention other people give them to make them actually be functional. I get really annoyed when I see these people and realize that they make almost no sense most of the time, seem completely manic, and cannot hold a conversation for more than one minute. They are lying to themselves and that is why they have to pay other people to make them actually be productive.)
And now, this is the most productive thing I have done in the past two weeks:
My aunts dogs through the years. From the outside on both side are the most long past toward the inside three who are currently living in the great north of Canada. This was a gift for the amazing trip she took me to Peru and Ecuador, which I still have not fully shared. I still have drawings and photos from my trip to scan and upload....a whole other stress. Anyway, she deserved this and so much more, but I was really happy to give a portrait of her amazing dogs in her beautiful wild garden.I hope this week gives me a little less anxiety and a little more confidence in my ability to juggle desires.